Someone who has cancer may have heard this statement before. We live from scan to scan. We are in treatment and then get scans to see what the status is of the disease. Has the cancer grown or has it been kept at bay? My type of colon cancer without God’s intervention is relentless and will probably not be beaten. It has resisted the first chemo regiment and presently it is fighting the second that is being thrown at it. I had a scan yesterday and wait the results. If the tumors are kept at bay, we continue with the present regiment. If it does not, then clinical trials are available for me. In the meantime, I await the results.
I cannot comprehend doing this without my faith in Christ and the support of hundreds in my journey. How should one who believes in a God who is sovereign and loving live their lives? I will admit that my affect is not always joyful. If you know you only had a few years to live how would you use that time? Would despair be your companion or would you fight to still have a life?
The text of Ephesians 1:15-23 has been a great encouragement to me. Grace is something I have a hard time wrapping my puny brain around. The depth of God’s grace is limitless. Paul breaks out in pray in these verse as he explained the Blessings we have in Christ (read this in Eh. 1:3-14 to get why Paul is so thankful).
“I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. 18 I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people,” The New International Version. (2011). (Eph 1:17–18). Grand Rapids, MI: Zondervan.
At these times when I struggle with my disease, I treasure Paul’s pray that the eyes of my heart may be enlightened in order that I may know the hope to which he has called me. Will I focus on the present physical life or will I look upward so that I will know the hope that all believers have in Christ? My friend, I will be healed in one of two ways. God could eradicate this dreadful disease from my body. If he does not, I will be healed when I die and enter His presence.
So do I live from scan to scan? In one way I do. But I also have before me growing in my knowledge of God’s grace and my expectation of entering his presence. Mercy Me explains it better than my attempt here. Please listen to this song and ask God to calm your heart as we wait on him for whatever faces you.
Thanks for listening.